The strange mom

In 4 hrs and 52 minutes, I will be 44 years old. Holy shit. How did I get here? I’m definitely feeling overshadowed by my good intentions but also at peace with it all. As the years go by, all I can think of is the things I’ve missed in teaching my kids. Operating mostly in survival mode for the last 4 years I’ve learned to “let it go”. Not always at the appropriate times, but more so a way of life. Not always in the best way. But tomorrow is about me. I have things to say. I’ve had things to say, but it’s taken me until my 44th year to justify using my time on me. But, here we go anyway..