I recently finished a book by Bessel van der Kolk. I never realized how much our bodies hold onto past trauma, even when our mind has forgotten. The saying “out of sight, out of mind” definitely no longer rings true in my head when I think of past trauma. I almost constantly find myself searching for an answer or looking to the universe to unleash some knowledge. I thought everyone was always curious. I thought everyone was always looking to understand themselves, just a little bit more. Growth can be so uncomfortable but I find myself most comfortable there. How do I move past things unless I overanalyze the crap out of everything. How do I move forward when I feel guilty for having the privilege to let stuff go? Over the last 5 years I have been forced to learn how to let go. Especially things that I have no control over. Like cancer or Down syndrome or Autism or my very angry at the world tweenager. Nothing and everything is profound. Lately I get these overwhelming urges to just lay down in the grass and stare at the sky. My body’s way of grounding my mind, I think. Imagine if we were all so tuned into ourselves that we actually listened to what our bodies were saying?!