What are you good at?

If you ask my inner self I would have told you that I suck at everything. How do we define what we are really “good” at doing? I’m good at losing my keys daily, forgetting why I walked into a room, and spending too much time researching my latest interests. I’d like to think I’m a good mom, friend, and partner, daughter, and sister, and the list goes on and on. But over the last few years of really looking inside for answers, I have noticed things I’m not that great at, so I am working on getting “good” at, for my sanity and it just so happens, everyone else’s.

I can only control me and my reactions. I can’t control how anyone reacts to me or my feelings. I have a right to feel all the feelings I feel but I have a responsibility to work through those feelings without damaging others. Moving towards connecting with my inner self on a level where I’m consciously aware of  why I feel what I feel, is what I want to be good at. I’ve tried “being like a goldfish” because I was told to wake up everyday with a clean slate.  But, then I found out that goldfish don’t actually have 3 second memories.  For more than 25 years scientists have studied goldfish and think the misconception comes from a combination of ignorance about fish intelligence in general and guilt, because pet owners often keep them in small, boring tanks.

I don’t want to keep myself in a small boring tank because I can’t control my own emotions. I will continue to practice being good at being me. Being aware of my feelings, how they affect my decisions, and how I view the world.