The strange mom

What are your biggest challenges?

Life as a whole. I mean, what else is harder? Certainly not death. And as for myself, I definitely screw myself over way too much with feelings.

But something weird happened and now I am actually able to pay attention to life, as it’s happening. AND calmly be aware of my thoughts and my reactions.

Which is a huge challenge. Because being aware of myself like this is tiring. Extremely fulfilling…. But also a pain in the ass sometimes.

Then the challenge of trusting myself. To be my own advocate. To make sure my own self-care is important. To remind myself that I can do hard things.

It turns out that I forget this information more than I’d like to admit. But I am getting better at reminding myself that I am enough.

Now when I am feeling frustrated or that I just can’t handle more stress, I try to remember that I actually can.

And somehow that’s oddly reassuring.

Yep. That’s me. Being weird.